Friday, 18 March 2011

Anger got the better of me today......

I think I've been bullied...well not exactly bullied but chastised for not doing something the wasn't in my remit!  How did I handle it?  Badly I think. 

Initially, when he approached me, I apologised for not doing that thing I wasn't supposed to do. I apologised and remained calm and took responsibility for the error/oversight. But he kept on going!  

Tell me once, and it goes in, but tell me a second, third and fourth time it becomes a little bit irritating. I'm not three! Sometimes I'm an adult.  It really was no biggie.  However, it was for him.  

I think it may have been his passive/aggressive stance on the matter that raised the hackles. Stern faced, enunciated, clipped words, I declared,  "I will repeat myself, yet again...I apologise!" and with a toss of the hair I flounced off in the direction of the loo's where I had a weep at the anger mounting in me!  At that point I really wished I was a ninja!

"Breath in, breath out, he's a twat, breath in, nasty little twunt, breath out, breath in, get a grip, breath out."

 I don't do confrontation...it's not in my job description.  I do calming, I do stroking and I do loving!

I'm more annoyed with my reaction after the event, the fact that I couldn't sleep, the fact that I took it personally, and the fact that I have to do anger at all!

I don't take kindly to being chastised/bullied especially when it wasn't my fault.

I now know how the kids feel when they wail,

"It wasn't me!"

5 comments:

  1. I hate when that happens! I do that sometimes too and can't sleep thinking about how I could have/should have reacted.
    It's always useful though to have a moment of clarity when you think 'oh this is how the kids feel when...'

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  2. Grrrrr... let me at him! I usually think of the right thing to say just moments after I say the wrong thing. Don't let it get you down!

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  3. Every time that lil' incident revisits you (or any other for that matter) ... become the Ninja! Picture a few fly kicks resulting in your enemy on the floor and then in triumph adjust your neck Bruce Lee style!!! Not that I think about this stuff all the time or anything .... and lastly as my mother would say 'keep your pecker up'!!!

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  4. It takes an awful lot to upset me, or to raise the anger. A quick witty quip is usually all it takes to diffuse any difficult situation...and we all remain pals!

    After nights pondering over it, I think "He" mistook my "niceness" for weakness and saw an opportunity to attack.

    Well Katy, I had fun beating the crap out of him...if only in my dreams!!

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  5. Oh dear. Men are so crass at times:) If only us women ruled the world!

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