Anger got the better of me today......
I think I've been bullied...well not exactly bullied but chastised for not doing something the wasn't in my remit! How did I handle it? Badly I think.
Initially, when he approached me, I apologised for not doing that thing I wasn't supposed to do. I apologised and remained calm and took responsibility for the error/oversight. But he kept on going!
Tell me once, and it goes in, but tell me a second, third and fourth time it becomes a little bit irritating. I'm not three! Sometimes I'm an adult. It really was no biggie. However, it was for him.
I think it may have been his passive/aggressive stance on the matter that raised the hackles. Stern faced, enunciated, clipped words, I declared, "I will repeat myself, yet again...I apologise!" and with a toss of the hair I flounced off in the direction of the loo's where I had a weep at the anger mounting in me! At that point I really wished I was a ninja!
"Breath in, breath out, he's a twat, breath in, nasty little twunt, breath out, breath in, get a grip, breath out."
I don't do confrontation...it's not in my job description. I do calming, I do stroking and I do loving!
I'm more annoyed with my reaction after the event, the fact that I couldn't sleep, the fact that I took it personally, and the fact that I have to do anger at all!
I don't take kindly to being chastised/bullied especially when it wasn't my fault.
I now know how the kids feel when they wail,
"It wasn't me!"